The following lyrics have been permanent residents of my brain for months now. Only I was in denial when it came to acknowledging it. But there’s not much to lose anymore, so here they go. (I refuse, however, to mention the band’s name. That would be too humiliating, even for me.)

Lately I've been wishing I had one desire
Something that would make me never want another
Something that would make it so that nothing mattered
All would be clear then.
But I guess I'll have to settle for a few brief moments
Watch it all dissolve into a single second
Try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
Or one foolish line.
Cause that's all that you'll get
So you'll have to accept
You are here then you're gone…