My day began at dawn- awake again.
I tried to sleep some more, but soon gave up.
Fresh images of you crossing my mind.
A piece of daily life, disguised as such.
Nothing too time consuming or severe;
Obsessions neutralized- a gift of time.

I dragged me to my feet and washed my face,
Had breakfast in a rush and left for work.
I walked on empty streets, hopped on the bus.
I listened to a song that spoke of you.
My thoughts betrayed me, like they always do,
But soon my precious logic gained control.

I sat in crowded rooms, and in a corner
An unfamiliar face stared back at me.
No one you’d call attractive, on the whole,
Yet something in his eyes caught my attention.
His eyes. They looked like yours,
They made my skin crawl.
I had to look away, but even then,
There was no way I’d focus on the speakers.
I didn't hear a word, and later on
I'd have to make it up in pointless sentences.

Thus, all which had been buried into memory
Was dragged up to the surface with a glance.
It seemed so long forgotten, I'd began to doubt
The very truth of our abandoned moments.
Yet there it was, the feeling, burning me like ice
And there it was, the fear, driving me crazy.

How easy to go on in pure denial,
Assuming I was cured, or even worse,
Acting as if our story never happened,
As if you never looked at me that way-
So real, I wouldn't dare assume you faked it;
So deep, I couldn't blame it on myself
Or my delusional imagination
-Which wouldn't change a thing, in any case
Lost as I was in a transparent labyrinth
With my defenses scattered at your feet.